A sexual abuse victim has told Sydney District Court he will never forgive the man who betrayed his trust.
The man’s victim impact statement will be used in the sentencing of a paedophile who was found guilty of 21 charges of indecent and sexual assault by a jury in May.
“I hate him for what he has done and I hate him for what he has done to me – God might forgive you but I never will,” the man told the court on Friday.
He was one of the male victims, aged between eight and 14, assaulted by the paedophile whose name and profession cannot be revealed for legal reasons.
During a trial in April the court heard the paedophile was a friend and mentor to many boys he saw regularly through his career.
The victims were all experiencing difficulties at home or school when the man befriended them and later abused them in a number of regions in NSW.
Focused and with his voice wavering only slightly, the man said numerous attempts at counselling had failed and ultimately he did not want to forgive his abuser.
He said at times his life was out of control, he suffered mood swings,
inactivity and constant fits of crying that he would try to hide from people.
The paedophile sat composed in the dock and 15 of the his supporters listened from the back of the court as the man spoke of avoiding questions about the past for fear his abuse would resurface.
“I am ashamed I let this happen and that I did not stand up any earlier,” he said.
He said he was resentful that his trust had been betrayed and years later the events had caused an irreversible impact on all his relationships.
“I have trouble acknowledging that there are good people out there.”
He spoke of lost jobs opportunities and the abuse of drugs and alcohol to help cope with the shame.
A sentencing hearing will be held next month.
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